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THE SEARCH FOR “IT”- Life On The LONELY Planet:
I have a sense every soul that has ever been born or ever will have something to contribute to the journey of this planet. I believe our journey is to experience life to the fullest, from every conceivable angle. What is the point of this experience we call life? Well it is my belief that we come to learn the right use of will, and the right use of physical power, weather that is over another person or in reflection of our own experience. All of the experience when put together creates a holograph of time and evolution like a giant multidimensional jigsaw puzzle. We are all a part of the one consciousness, with no division except that which our beliefs and ego’s create. Every soul has come into life with an individual piece to add to life’s giant jigsaw puzzle. Somewhere, somehow, in the midst of the experience we all call life, we all, sooner or later, we discover that we all have something to contribute, that we to have a purpose and that purpose is unique to us alone. Each and every soul has been born with its own quest, the quest to understand, the quest to find solutions to the decline of our natural resources, the quest to make this world a better place, the quest to find inner peace and so on and so forth. Some may simply quest to find happiness or expression of their creativity. Or it could be the quest to solve the puzzle of that experience we call life? However from the very first moment we think to question, the moment we notice life is not how we imagined it should be, our journey has begun, and from that one moment of inner reflection, life will never be the same. That I guarantee. Now just because we have noticed something is not quite right doesn’t mean finding the answer will be easy, I have found it to be quite to the contrary. On one hand you have an aspect of us, yearning for answers. Yet on the other hand you have the “Manyana,” philosophy of I will do that tomorrow; I am to busy today with daily life and the challenges of here and now to contend with. It’s quite a juggling act and for even the most ardent seeker the challenge is to defy the odds and solve the mystery. As life demands we stay totally absorbed in the confusion, emotions and beliefs that clutter our day-to-day lives. The worldly distractions, the passions, the needs and desires as well as other things like families and paying the mortgage all must still be dealt with. These circumstances of our lives are all intricately intertwined with the clues to solving the puzzle of why we are not fulfilled and contented, however our choices are, do we abandon our families and head of on some quest for the Holy Grail? Do we try to incorporate the changes in our daily lives and hope our partners will understand? Do we ignore the longing inside and simply do nothing? How do we juggle all the balls in the air without dropping any? How many choices do we have? What lead us to be here in the first place? For some people the trigger which starts the search for self is prompted by the death of someone close to us, other times it may be our own lives are threatened or shaken awake by some financial, physical or mental challenge. A brush with death may trigger the sleeping human being to begin to awaken, but will it give the answers to why we are here and what it’s all about easily. I very much doubt it. Maybe this world is only capable of being awoken by a natural disaster of enormous magnitude? Maybe there must be wars and catastrophes before people will stop and look at what is really important in their lives. Maybe when life is just coasting along we don’t have enough pain to make us really pay attention, and want to change how we treat others and how we show our love to our family and friends? How much has to happen before people take notice and decide to do something to help the consciousness of this planet lift and change? For the majority of the population however, the strange sense of urgency increases only when the hand of fate touches our lives. Yet for everyone deep within us all as the clock ticks away and the wrinkles and gray hair appear, and we watch as the calendar marks off the days and years of our passing life. Days never to be relived, except in our memories. When we are young we tend to hide the urgency within us from ourselves by avoidance, compulsive behavior and generally too much of too much. We can become a workaholic, shop-a-holic or even an alcoholic. But still within us all is an uneasy feeling and an unexplainable sense that we can’t get “home” without finding or solving “IT.” And yet, what is “IT”. Where is “home”? Why do I feel so unsettled and discontent? It’s quite strange when you stop to think about it, if we are totally honest its easy to acknowledge that for most of us our lives consist of trying to control and arrange events to suit our vision of getting life to work. Some are lucky enough to naturally be able to go with the flow, and they have what would appear a blessed life, luck and circumstances smile on them, while others seem to struggle constantly. We all hope to finally unravel the clues and in doing so find a way to express our uniqueness and fill in the missing pieces, before we’re too old to enjoy the benefits of the knowledge. It would be a shame to get to the end of our lives, and all of a sudden have a B.F.O of “I’ve got it, now I understand,” just before you pop off. Meanwhile we go about our daily lives, the clock ticks and the hours pass us by, never to return. Somehow till now we have avoided facing the deepest questions, the needs, the passions unfulfilled. We hide these truths even from ourselves, denying their existence like hiding a piece of a childhood puzzle from your brother or sister in the cupboard. Our destiny sits silently waiting, safely tucked away just waiting for us to allow a flicker of introspection to spark its presence to grow. One moment of self-reflection is all it takes, Pandora’s Box is opened and life will never be the same, our personal development to spring upon us with the fury of a hurricane. Just one second is all it takes to begin to stir the memory hidden deep within us. One second, that’s all it takes for the journey to begin. Within us all lies a dormant distant memory of there being a better way to live. And with those memories comes the knowing that the potential of our soul to achieve is far greater than we ever could have imagined it to be. For me, my memory jolt came in the shape and form of a beaten up magazine tossed in the corner of a doctor’s waiting room. For you it could be hidden deep in the pile of things stuck away in the shed in the back yard. Or maybe, it’s buried deep amongst the stuff that grandma left you, that’s piled on the shelf in the corner of the back veranda. The memory could be stirred by the scent of a flower, the memory of a sunset a child laughing. Anything can set your growth and development in motion at any time. Of course, it’s your Choice, whether to listen to “it” or not. Daily we are bombarded by sensory information; the problem is that most people are not present in order to receive the information. They are busy in their imaginations and thoughts, and their thoughts are more often than enough people’s thoughts are lost in yesterday, or exploring tomorrow. Little do they realize it is in this exact second, in this moment today – is where the answers are to be discovered? All too often our need for answers is triggered by painful experiences. The human psyche would rather erase or deny or avoid such memories, as the pain can sometimes be too much for one to endure. We are experts at carefully packing away things we don’t know or want to deal with even though we know that one day we will eventually have to unpack, face and then throw away what we don’t need. The memories can be of unrequited love, or of loved ones who have passed away, sometimes tragically, or just too soon, or maybe during an argument that never should have happened. The precious insights are held secret from our vision because the emotions and the pain are far too intense for us to be able to see past them into the understanding and wisdom. It is normal to feel overwhelmed by the enormity and complexity of life’s hurdles. Trying to make sense of the confusion at the time is often a fruitless task. We humans seem to learn more when we look back than at the moment of confrontation. I once heard it said that in hindsight we all have 20 –20 vision. Generally people lack the skills to be able to question our perception of life’s obstacles, at the time of the challenge. We make excuses, in order to avoid having to acknowledge that we don’t know how to deal with a problem. We say we haven’t got time, so we don’t have to stop and think and feel. We convince ourselves it is all right not to have time, our priorities have become confused and we have all but forgotten the importance of our loved ones in our life. However, secretly we think, even if there were time, where do we start to fix things? Yet the real problem is often we don’t know what Choices we have? Our choices lay outside of our thinking patterns, so how do we find them? Books, training programs, religion, and spirituality, university, and self- help groups, going to a psychologist of councilor all bring us more choices. But wouldn’t it be good if we could do all of that using our own knowledge? Wouldn’t it be better if we could find a way to expand our choices, without having to pay lots of money or rely on other people? “There must be a way,” I thought and without knowing it my journey had begun. I had dared to question; I had dared to dream of a better way. Now what would be the challenges? |
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