TRUITY Spiritual Mentoring

Little did I realize that in 1994, my journey was only just starting, I was naive enough to think that I had reached the destination, and that the worst was over. Finally free of a bad marriage, and answerable only to myself, I had to first learn to live life without a family to emotionally and physically support me and then I had to work out how I would do what I wanted to do!

If I had only known what lay before me, would I have walked this path? I am not sure I would have had the courage; however now I am here well I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. The person, who struggled to the computer desk plagued with some unknown mystery illness, was about to embark on the journey of a lifetime or maybe ten lifetimes all rolled into one.

Life today in 2003 bears no resemblance to the life I led back in 1994. When I think about it it’s even further removed than I ever could have imagined from the day in the operating theatre in 1976 when my life force left me and my world was rocked to the core by stepping through the veil of life and death.

In that moment of death my view of life in this world changed forever. With that experience my views, thoughts, and understanding of spirituality and the evolution of consciousness. I begged not to be sent back to this world, but was told the words, “you know you have free will, but you must go back and finish what you went into life to do.”  

What is fulfillment? I have come to the conclusion it is different things to different people dependant upon what stage of evolution we are embracing. Today I am a very different person from the person who began this journey, I have finally the courage and knowing to be me, in every sense of the word, and life is just beginning.

I decided to rewrite my story, so the second edition of this story is very, very different to the first. For some strange reason many people have this inappropriate belief when we become aware or enlightened then life will be simple that noting will touch you and you manifest t his surreal reality to live in. There are those who would have you believe you just float around in this world where it would just be nice stuff. I want to tell you right now that this belief is of course are complete hogwash. You know it doesn’t matter how evolved we become, life still hands us the same challenges to face, I think in fact it actually hands you more, the only thing that changes is how we deal with the challenges.

I feel to warn the enthusiastic beginner, that the benefits, which come from self-awareness and personal development, are quite different to what people expect. If your life is not happy and fulfilling now, then be sure there is going to be a lot of changes before you find what you’re looking for! Things must fall apart for them to be rebuilt solid; it’s like building a house. If you build on lousy foundations then the house won’t be solid, and it will eventually cost you dearly. The foundations I am speaking of here are the ultimate foundation for everything in our lives – and that foundation is “TRUTH”-. Relationships improve, because you stop running all the old scripts, you enjoy each day as it comes and make every day something to remember, and the challenges which would have once sent me into a tail spin today have become just a mere irritation and inconvenience.

There is no easy fix in life, becoming self- aware is like those shampoo ads, “it won’t happen overnight but it will happen.” Your life and mine is a direct result of how we think, and process information, how we respond to circumstances and the choices we make. We can make informed choices, or we can simply run on autopilot and react to every little thing, it’s up to us. I would like to think that my role in writing this manuscript is to help you be aware that you have choices, and to show you that there are other ways of looking at life experiences, and to reassure you we often only see a tiny part of the picture. For the most part of our lives our actions are prompted by subconscious assumptions and presumptions and these are all fed by our insecurities, fears, beliefs and values and from all this cocktail of information we unknowingly make the choices which determine how and when our life will lead us.