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It was July 2002, I had half woken from sleep, and my mind was flashing here, flashing there, pictures, sounds, all so real, all so intense, a kaleidoscope of extra sensory information. Every day begins like this for me, I always get a prelude to what the day will bring, but lately I had found myself more and more questioning what is it that governs our lives and how our life experience manifests, for example why life appears blessed for some and not for others. Flashes kept filling my mind; I could hear the vices of people talking almost as though I were being observed by a room full of people. My vision would fill and clear over and over showing me places that in this life I have not been. I am aware that my mind is still in deep Theta and yet I can bring to my awareness the insights running strong from my truth, from my inner knowing. Its like I am in a space of all knowing, all seeing as I catch glimpses, real life glimpses of what I know to be the truth, but how can I put this in words how can I explain these are my thoughts. It’s like dozens of life times have flooded into this life, so much information, so much insight, so much wisdom.
Most of my life I feel I have been looking for answers, putting together some giant jigsaw puzzle of the universe and how it works, someone once told me I seek “the wisdom of Solomon” and right now I would not be surprised if that were in fact true. I feel as though I am bringing knowledge from another time and place, knowledge of true magic, the magic of how emotions and thoughts create and influence our lives. Even as a child, I knew that in our minds have capability and potential far beyond our comprehension. Scientists still know so little about the true workings of the brain, and even more of a mystery is the subject of Mind and Sprit. I have always been intrigued at the fact we have this immense power house of ability to heal our bodies, to heal our lives, to create such a wonderful abundance that there are no limits except those we place upon our selves. So if all that I say is true, then why is it so difficult to align with that flow of energy? Why don’t people create better lives more easily?
What is it that keeps most of us floundering like fish in the puddles of an outgoing tide? Many of you would have read Book of Choices my biography, and no doubt would be able to relate to so much of that book that it will leave you with your head spinning, and yet even though it will reinforce your self worth and reconnect you with some simple plain truths it will not fully give you the answer to what you were seeking when you bought it. For at the end of that book I still did not fully comprehend the extent of the journey and the mass of knowledge that I have assimilated into my life and the teachings of today.
Yet, today just started like any other day, only one thing would be different today and after today life would never be the same. The final piece of the puzzle would fall into place and finally it would all come together, and it would be today the puzzle would be solved, finally I would truly understand “the meaning of life.” And unlike Monty Python in the movie the meaning of life, I would remember the question that bought the answer. EUREKA I’ve got it!What were the thoughts that you were thinking that bought you here? If I could place a tape recorder in your pocket to record every thought you had today, every thought I wonder what it would tell me about you and how you think. What astounding realizations we would all have if only our internal thoughts could be monitored and played back to us so we could view them from a different perspective. Would you be astounded at the disempowering dribble you keep telling yourself? Or, would you be happy with the fact your thinking totally supports and honors your life and your dreams? What changes would we make to our internal vocabulary then? If you want to play with this exercise, I can assure you that you will be astounded at what you learn about yourself. All you need to do is simply put the book down for the day, grab a tape recorder and go for it, record “every thought” that comes into your mind, even if you just do it for a couple of hours and you will be astounded at what you realize when you play the tape back to yourself. This is taking self awareness to the extreme, I know and a bit bizarre, but good just for a bit of illuminating fun. You see many of the problems we have or that we manifest in our lives are due to not only not listening to our intuition but also the fact we talk to our selves and think in patterns which don’t support our ability to create an abundant wealthy life. How many times do you get the inspiration to do something, only to almost instantly reject the thought with “no I can’t do that, what would people think?”
Often the thoughts in our heads are just like old tapes playing in the background and those tapes reinforce all the things we don’t want in our lives and every doubt we could possibly invent to keep us feeling so tiny that we are so limited in our energy that we are kept captive of our beliefs about the world. If I could wave a magic wand, and all your past disappeared, in a flash of light, and you were now programmed with only empowering statements full of self belief combined with an attitude that supports you to love everything you do because you inherently see how what you do benefits everyone around you, how much do you think your world would change? Right now you are probably thinking this woman is so far out in left field that no wonder she is happy, her reality is so far from this reality that it’s totally unrealistic, but wait. I want you to consider this for a moment; Two children grow up in the same street, with parents who work at the same company coming from the same background, having the same schooling, sharing the same games and sports, every influencing factor is exactly the same. Why it is these two people can have such totally different outcomes to their lives. They are both good hearted people, their circumstances have been identical; they have had the same opportunities, the same education and the same experiences. How come one of the children grew up to become a millionaire and the other lives on a government support pension?
What is the factor that decreed that one of have it all and the other just equally a good person, has nothing to speak of as far as material wealth?Right through this book I will share with you my thoughts and insights into how you can successfully and swiftly move from being a have not to a have, from lack to luck and from struggle to abundance. Your wealth is only a thought away, and as in the old scriptures, “Ask and it shall be given unto you, the kingdom of God is within.” People are strangely comfortable with struggle, as in some bizarre way they would rather blame fate or luck or circumstances out of their control for their poverty stricken and painful lives. We constantly fight fate when it tries to keep us safe; we have developed this behavior where we know better, we get stressed when we are caught at traffic, because we will be late, when in fact that red light could have just saved your life.
We fight to keep relationships going when we know they are not good for us, and then we scream when the person hurts us again, or our lives don’t happen the way we want. Human beings aren’t very self-honest in most cases, and this is because we don’t understand our motivation. We can’t tell the difference between fear that is real and fear that is from paranoia? We have lost the sense of self that can keep us on a steady keel and more than that we have begun to buy into thinking in terms of lack and terms of helplessness when in fact this is not the truth of whom or what we are, and that is a big part of the problem. I want you to imagine you’re self in a ball of energy, see it in your mind clear and strong. This ball is your universe it is all the energy you will ever have. There is no more, just this!Now, imagine in your mind what you want to fill that space of energy, how are your thoughts filling that space? Are you filling it with positive affirmations of you love and wealth of life?Or are you filling it with thoughts about what you don’t have and what you don’t like?It really makes you think doesn’t it? What if that scenario is true, and you without knowing it have been struggling to achieve and create wealth and yet totally disempowering your efforts with you thoughts about lack or loss or what you don’t want? Could it be that simple?
Could it be that we all have the power to create absolute abundant lives provided we discover the secret of thinking only in a certain way? Get a note book, or diary, and I want you to think back to something specific you wanted in your life, and I want you to write the incident down; write what you felt and as much of what you thought as you could, hindsight always has 20.x.20 vision. Be honest, no one else has to know this is an exercise for you. When events impact upon our lives, often our lives are forced to change direction, we are forced to make CHOICES. A wife killed in a car smash, a child who never comes home from school, being told you have a terminal illness, or finding out your marriage is over or that someone you have trusted, should never have been trusted. You may question right now yes, but how could I have created that into my life? Fate deals sometimes unjust cards to us all at different times in our lives, so how do we as individuals survive such horrendous onslaughts? Do we curl up in the corner, crying and screaming how unjust it all is, or, do we pick up the pieces and put our lives hearts and souls back together when the foundations of our world have just been torn apart? Some of the most magnificent tools for healing are the result of individuals having the strength of purpose to rise above the challenge, and the certain way of thinking to bring goodness out of tragedy. Some say that difficulties in life are a part of our spiritual progression into wisdom, and that by growing in understanding many of the difficulties can be avoided.
It is true that many of the situations I have encountered in my life have actually been other peoples problems, that I have become unwittingly involved in. The big question is however, how do you regain balance and get life back on track after suffering a huge shock or set back? What do you do when emotions are chewing up your insides, tearing at your heart? How do we make those wise choices that bring back our personal power and sense of balance? How can our internal dialogue help us anchor to our strength and support us to rise above the challenge life has presented. In relation to grief, then the first acknowledgement to yourself is that healing takes time, your life is not going to get better overnight and believe me its not healthy if it does! One day however, you will be ready to heal your life and you will be ready to move past the past and live a full life once more. It may not be today, but that day will come, just as surely as the sun rises, so we have the choice to gently rebuild our lives using our greatest asset to support the journey.
When the body or psyche is influenced by shock the first best possible recourse is to minimize the traumatic discussions and to find ways to soothe and re-establish foundations which support your basic life structure. Be careful not to have unrealistic expectations of your self, first simply take time to feel, and then be sure you keep your thinking in a certain way that will support you rather than make you a victim of life. Avoid getting into space of, “why me,” instead keep your focus as strongly as you can on thoughts which help redefine your strength and faith that attunes us to bringing all the help we need right into our lives, use the law of attraction. By being thankful for the love and support of others, it will bring more love and support into your life. This is the universal law of attraction in its omnipotent omnipresent absolute truth. Well I suppose the ultimate point is have you felt enough pain to be willing to look, to ask, to seek understanding, and for some of you, you will say no, others you will say well maybe this woman has something she can help me understand. May be she can help me restore the balance and start over to get my life back to the point where I stop grieving and start living and feeling and loving again. We are going to go over some basic ground in this short book, you wont find all your answers here but you will find food for thought, that I can guarantee. Firstly I want you to ask yourself what drives your decision making.
How much do you know about what makes you – you? How aware are you of the fact that self trust entwined with your view of the world can either make or break you life! So if you don’t trust yourself, if you are constantly looking for the advice and approval of other people, then your life surely is not your own, and if your life is not your own, then there is no way you can manifest a balanced healthy life experience in this world. Your perception of events plays a major role in how you feel about yourself and the internal levels of self trust. And ultimately our self trust is the fuel of our internal thought process. Remember to think and manifest abundance you must learn to think in a certain way that empowers your life to create a wonderful life.
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